I Don’t Think We’re Ever Going Back

By Xandria 

I’m writing this from my bedroom in my parents’ house. I’m working on a small desk in the corner of the room, and there’s a cool breeze coming in from the window in front of me. Sounds pretty great, right? This is day 35 of quarantine for me, I only leave the house to get groceries for my family once or twice every two weeks and maybe, sometimes I go for a walk to get some fresh air and clear my head. I’ve been working from home for the last 6 weeks, and I might be the only person in the world that doesn’t completely hate this situation.

It’s a strange world we’re living in, we’re stuck in our homes as a means to stop the spread of a virus we can’t seem to slow down. Stuck is also a weird word to be using at a time like this, when having a home, a job to work from home, full cupboards and fridge are immense blessings – it’s the farthest thing from being stuck. There’s many without homes, many who’s jobs don’t allow the flexibility to work from the safety of a house. There’s also those who have no jobs, those who don’t have any idea when they can do their next round of groceries. I don’t take that lightly. I find myself being deeply thankful for every little thing I have. In a time that some might argue is so easy to focus on the bad, I find myself searching for the good. The world before the virus is gone, it’s something I don’t think we are ever going to get back. Not because we won’t ever bounce back – but because each of us, every single person on this planet, will forever be changed by this.

Since this whole ordeal started, since the virus made its way to Italy it dawned on me that there might be a much larger reason for why this is all happening. For the first time it’s like the whole world is on pause, people have no choice but to be present in the moment and take everything day by day. Isn’t that the way we should have been living all along? This is thought that has crossed my mind many many times. Shouldn’t we be living a life that is full of gratitude, a life that is in no rush whatsoever, a life that’s not bound by a schedule, a life with no fear. Maybe this is the Universe’s way – God’s way – of telling us to go back to basics, maybe this is His way of showing us that we really are all in this together. That in a world separated by race, politics and religion, maybe just maybe, this is His way of showing us that there really isn’t anything separating each of us. That when you really look at life for what it is, we are all the same. We crave that human connection, we have always been all in this together. I don’t know when or how this will all end, but when it does we’re going to have to begin again, together. The way we should have all along.

Stay strong my friends. Stay positive and choose joy every day, search for joy every single moment you can. When we finally get out of this, we’ll hug a little harder, love a lot further. We’ll cherish every trip to the grocery store, and every family gathering a hell of a lot more. I promise you that. And from now, until the day this is all over; stay present, take deep breaths and take comfort in knowing that time will heal, time will pass and soon this will be over.

Stay safe.

Xo, Xandria

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50 thoughts on “I Don’t Think We’re Ever Going Back

  1. I love how you brought out the positive in this situation. It’s great to constantly be aware of the many things that there are to be grateful for even in difficult situations.
    This was truly encouraging.

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  2. I feel the same way. Indeed there’s always always great wisdom behind each of God actions. Some we see and to understand some even our whole lives aren’t enough.
    Hoping the world changes towards the better and May all of us deal with it with patience and come out successful.

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  3. Very nice post…Yes,we should thank god,that we have everything,food to eat,home, some people r going through tough time,their children are hungry,they don’t have money to buy a food or something, can’t wait for the day to hear COVID 19 iz finally gone…

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  4. Yeah it’s really a giant balance, you wanna mingle to get the spread over with quickly and move on with life but you also don’t want a major pandemic on our hands either in terms of too many too sick too fast.

    It’s literally a natural test like purge in the form of waves.

    Since as people get sick and live they build their immune systems in which case like any test they passed the first wave so like the book of revelations mentioned?

    Those will be the ones unaffected by the second wave.

    Others sadly either die or end up immune for whatever reasons or even carriers in some cases in which case those ones also passing and will not be effected by the second wave.

    So like the song or band two steps from hell, if you pass those two waves?

    You live!

    Natural/God selection and cleansing in order to bump humanity towards a more positive way of life which harmonizes with nature.

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    1. If there’s one important lesson I’ve learned in my short 24 years of life its that -especially in times like this – the best thing you can be is grateful and count every single blessing. I hope you are keeping well !

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    1. I’m so glad to hear that ! It’s not easy, we all have our days. The way I like to think is – I’m doing my part and staying home, the rest is out of my control & worrying is a waste of time. Keep your chin up, my friend ! Stay Safe

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  5. It’s a break for Mother Nature first, before something we needed. Even if someone said ‘go back to normal’ I think people will now be changing their habits. My greatest fear is what will happen to those thousands of small businesses that people put their heart and souls in. If we put our own woes aside for a minute, then we should be praying that every person is able to continue putting food on the table for their loved ones.

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    1. 100% this is what I’m constantly trying to remind myself – we need to help each other! I don’t think the world can ever go back to where we were, this is a life changing event, I don’t think people will be the same when we come out. I do hope all is well with you. -xo

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    1. Small steps ! Try listing out 5 things you’re grateful for every morning before you get out of bed. Little things can alter your entire day – stay safe, and take care, xo.

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    1. if it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you ! I promise it’s a change for the better. xo Stay safe and please take care out in the world.

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  6. I loved reading every second of this ❤ This post is very needed right now, and I agree with everything said! We should be more present, we should be more grateful. The bright side to this crisis is the perspective that I pray the world is learning. So much of life rushes by but we can slow it down, we can enjoy it more! Happiness is inside each of us, we can find it and savor it. By us all being separated now I pray that when this is all over it makes us all closer than ever before! Thank you for this ❤

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    1. This comment made my whole day !!!! Thank you for your kind words, I am so grateful that this resonated with you so deeply. I hope you are staying safe and taking care of yourself.

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  7. An awesome read for me! It’s absolutely the same round the world and I am sure we will learn a lot of things during this period and also get to realize how much we should love and cherish each other. I hope we get through this together👌 Keep staying safe!

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  8. I can’t go out shop for groceries, and don’t know when next I can have my groceries delivered. Still, I don’t hate it. I chose to self-isolate. It’s much safer for me that way. I’m not lonely, because I have my cats, and there’s the internet. There’s so much we still can do. So much to enjoy. And I love the peace and quiet that comes with my solitude. I love that the air we breathe is cleaner now. And hopefully, when this is over, we’ll be able to finally take better care of our planet.

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  9. “Stuck” So true: hardly the right word, like “social distancing”. I’m less “distanced” than normal as I virtually connect with friends and family more than before.

    I’m focusing on the joy of choosing to be home. I’m delighted to see the graphs responding to our efforts to slow down the pandemic. I’m glad that we have outspoken leaders who want to bring us out of this nightmare to a better world. They can help us to remember that we’re all connected with each other and the earth.

    Thanks for stopping by my blog. I’m glad that you drew my attention to yours.

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