So this is just going to be a sort of update on the post I put out yesterday. If you haven’t read it you can do so by clicking here to get a better perspective of what I’ll be talking about in this post.
I want to start by thanking everyone who commented on yesterdays post. You guys have no idea how much your kind words have touched me and just the fact that there are so many amazing people on here means so much! One of the reasons I wanted to delete the awards and go awards free is because I had associated it with negativity but thanks to all your support I feel much better about it and the posts will remain up and I will continue to accept awards on this blog and I will also continue to not pick specific nominees. I feel that my resolution to stop making new award posts and deleting the existing ones came from a place of anxiety attempting to control me and I never want to feel controlled by it. Instead I will choose to face my anxieties and attempt to work on the underlying problems causing it. My anxiety is still there but has reduced a lot and I think I should be fine by tomorrow.
The Bigger Picture
I think it was particularly frustrating and anxiety inducing for me because it really indicates the bigger problem that’s faced with the internet and the social norms that we are so used to. We are so prepared to aggressively call out and overanalyze everyone without thinking of our own actions. When I attempted to defend myself and explain my position I was told I should put some sort of disclaimer on all my posts or shut off my comments. Why should I do any of those things? I love blogging and if you have a problem with my blog then don’t read it. They claim I leave them on for validation. I can assure you this is not the case. If you’ve ever read any of my posts you will know I love interacting with everyone in the comments and hearing what you have to say. It’s not just my experience, people say that all the time- the internet is a harsh place so if you’re sensitive don’t be online. Let’s change our attitude from this. It’s not about being thick skinned or being able to take criticism it’s about doing what you love. I wish people would just let people just live their life and enjoy what they’re doing. Let’s all make a point of being kinder to one another and if something does bother you please choose your words wisely or better yet just avoid their blog/posts.
Anyway thank you again for all the amazing comments I have read every one of them and will reply as soon as I possibly can! You guys are truly amazing people!
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The cover image used was created by Elaine. Her art is absolutely brilliant and has always been a source of positivity and I thought this image is perfect for this post because it really expresses how I felt after meditating about the situation and getting more control over my emotions.